When you study the ancient, spiritual, sacred teachings if you don't have developed the sense of responsability and the humbleness, these are the first things you learn as an initiate. In any spiritual path, if you don't have a strong road to walk on, you will recieve lessons in that direction according to your power of creation, until you will wake up and accept: the power that comes with your decisions, the responsability over created consequences, and the humbleness, because even though you have a free will, you are not free of the consequences of your deeds. The last aspect of this, can also be a positive aspect, if your deeds are for the commun good, and not just personal. Otherwise you cannot truly start in your initiation, but you will only get stuck in a time loop, where you will recreate in an neverending process certain experiences. Until you recognize the mirage of that timp loop you might not realize that you walked in a circle in all that time, and you might then truly wake up and start to ask questions about what and how. And only with honesty and openness you can truly see and hear, what you have to learn.
“Didn’t I tell you?
They will accuse you of all the wrongdoings,
they will call you ugly names,
they will make you forget it is Me,
who is the source of your happiness.”