Lately I'm being spontaneous about everything. It's not a decision, but more like a natural behaviour that is rising out of the deepest core. It is the most interesting experience that I have came across so far. The majority of the moments in my life right now are spontaneously arising and are even the best choices that I could have taken so far. Of course there is no perfection 100% of the time, but still I have never experienced such extent of freedom to the point where I do not have to be very careful of what I am thinking, saying or doing, all because the action that is spontaneously arising is just the right thing to do at that moment, in that context, for everyone involved.
Being spontaneous in this way doesn't mean being unconscious of the thoughts, spoken words and actions, it's exactly the opposite. The awareness grows to such extent that it just means that the flow of the mind has been so cleaned up and that you spontaneously manifest in the right ways. It means that at the base of the manifestations there are mostly pure, virtuous, noble inborn qualities that have been some freed, and some newly planted. I have never imagined that I would get to a point where I could feel this free deep inside, but also abiding in fullness. Two important primordial aspects have started to merge in the mind at such extent that everything around is rearranged, redecorated. It's literally spontaneously redecorating the reality that these eyes witness.
Things that have always bothered this personality, have faded in the background like they were just parts of some movie scenes that I have watched. There are things that I have never imagined that they could be deleted from my mindstream. There are things that I have never imagined I could do, think, or be.
Trying to be something, anything at all, only gets in the way of you becoming it. It is amazing how letting go works when you witness the mind constantly inquiring and trying desperately to "be" something. Letting go frees the personality of the hamster wheel that has been blindly running for so long. It stops the mind from running, and the personality stops from desperately wanting something. At this point things seem frozen like nothing is happening, and for a while it does manifest that way, but it is only until the mind fully undresses the clothes that has blindly worn for so long. And then some magic but real down to earth stuff happens. You observe the clothes you've worn for so long, and you realize that they are so tight and unappropiate. Sometimes this is not just a metaphor. And you let go of them, and start wearing anything that serves best for everyone at every appropiate moment. It's not even a matter of mentally choosing to wear anything on top of the fundamental being, it's more a matter of appropiately mirroring the qualities that the fundamental being tries to bring forth through this body. So it spontaneously chooses the style, the clothes, the words, the moments, the thoughts that are most beneficial for everyone involved.
This means that if we are attracted to God, the universality of things, to religion, spirituality, the fundamental reality and any idea of spiritual growth, it doesn't mean we have to flee the cities, dress some rags, leave our families, stop eating and become hermits for a thousand years. It means exactly the opposite. If the soul, the mind started to long for something more, to search for deeper meanings while you were working at a call-center in one of the big cities of the world, then it might mean that the mind awakened realising that in this very place a change is desperately needed. The fundamental mind that sees through anything, without the personality actually noticing this, has seen that something must be done in that very place, and has decided that this is the time to make the call. So through that mind, body, and personality it chooses to pour itself into this matrix, because it is needed for beings. And the majority thinks that "God" is doing nothing.
I will refer to the fundamental being as God, He, Him, but in fact HE is not actually a person, but more the universal ground and life of all things.
He pour "himself" in us, cracking us open, sometimes through pain because of our stubbornness to let go of the personality's familiar ways, because that's what he does.
He takes care of things, corrects, protects, rearranges, heals, guides, loves, gives life.
All we have to do is let it be, let it happen, be spontaneous, find a spiritual instrument of mental concentration that is pure and that can actually help you focus on the right things. (like a sanscrit mantra, or a christian prayer) On letting go, on naturally becoming and naturally learning what you long for so much. And if you do it right, if you actually devote to the right intentions, then things will start happening, and the longing will start to fade because it is met with answers, freedom (emptiness) and fullness.
You can continue to wear whatever clothes you like, you will naturally choose clothes that are suitable, beautiful and beneficial. You can continue to take care of your body, to go to work, to spend time with your families, to listen to music, to do your crafts. But you will naturally make some changes that are more suitable for the recently arised fundamental mind. Maybe you will change the style of your clothes, the job, the business vision, the music you listen, the crafts and hobbies you enjoy, but those are for the best. In fact those are part of the changes that the fundamental being has intended to bring forth through this being, because those changes are the most beneficial ways for every being involved, even "yourself". As long as all the pure, virtous, noble qualities start to emerge around you through any type of manifestation (people, experiences, places) then you are doing it right. Harmony, peace, natural virtue and nobility will be at the base of everything, more or less.
So being spontaneous.... just let it happen.